I have a character named Elle who willingly spent 150 years (she's an Elf) separating her own mind and wants, as well as possible, from herself, so she could better serve her deity -- a deity which doesn't confide in anyone, has plans that are far beyond the scope of any mortals, and who openly admits to using their followers as puppets in this plan. because more than anything else, she's terrified of control, and she's terrified of living without a purpose.
y'all ever write a story where there aren't any protagonists and the character you most relate to is the one who said "fuck it, making decisions sucks" and gave herself up to a deity she doesn't understand
@jacethechicken hey jacie...... I love this character. wtf. thank you
@woomy I love her so much too. and tbh I'm pretty sure the god Ashiok is predatory, and I feel like the power dynamic involved makes the whole "giving up your identity" part a little less willing and a little more coercive, but I think Elle herself is valid for wanting to serve something greater 🤷
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